Awesome 2!

Your dad and I agreed on a keepsake for you on every birthday - a letter from each of us just to remind you (and us) how blessed we are to have you. You turned 2 on 11/04/12 so this is definitely long overdue.

Being a mum to you has changed me. You've taught me how to love fiercely, and yet freely; to dance unreservedly (even if my greatest moves are only executed in my head); to share my affections and afflictions. 

There was a time when you wholly depended on me for almost everything. Days in my foolishness that I wished would be a thing of the past so that I could get my life back. But now as I look at you run and slowly gain your independence I want to turn back the clock and get that little babe back. I know... it's the crazy mummy hormone - heavily addicted to gummy smiles, soft blankies and yummy smelling soft skin.

I thank God for His having allowed me to be available to you thanks to my work-from-home business. I love the special moments we've shared mixing cake batter, perfecting mum-mum's secret vanilla cake frosting (which you now can't stand!), singing our prayers, feeding Pooh and Yuki... It's in this memories in the making that God reminds me to savor our time together. My task list may no longer include transporting you everywhere, or spoon-feeding you the pureed foods that you so despised; but I'm honored that I still get to speak words of blessings over you.

May the Lord instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; May He counsel you with His loving eye on you. (Psalms 32: 8)

And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.(Philippians 4:19)

This is the day the Lord has made;may you always rejoice and be glad in it.(Psalms 118:24)

Love you always,
Mummy

Hope for the weary mum

But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
                                    Isaiah 40:31

Meals to be cooked. Noses and bums to be wiped. Dishes to be cleared. Socks to be paired... and in the middle of this muddle, is a family to be loved.

I'm not a multi-tasking mum. Period. I know that there's a generalization that women are great multi-taskers, but that gene seems to be missing from my DNA. I try to keep my house running, and still have some mummy time. At times, this is possible, but more often than not, the day ends with half of my 'To-Do' list still pending and a back ache that feels chronic.

There lies my problem: "I try." I'm beginning to realize that I can't do this on my own strength. I can't be a loving wife and mother; a budding writer and astute business woman; a godly woman. To be all this things and more, I need God. I need to learn to find my strength in Him, and when weary, I need to find my rest in Him. Like the Psalmist, may I say

"You let me rest in fields of green grass. You lead me to streams of peaceful water, and you refresh my life. You are true to your name, and you lead me along the right paths."


Psalm 23:2-3 CEV